I can't remember the last time I've cried that hard. Racked with sobs. I don't know where this is coming from. Is it happiness? Is it sadness? I started off laughing and it ended up this way. What is going on. Why did that tweet trigger it? I don't understand. I don't understand. How am I going to act like nothing happened. I can't tell if I'm having some kind of breakdown or not and if I don't reply soon I'm going to look like a jerk. I will enjoy myself. I told myself not to give up. It's my own decision. You have to choose your happiness. I will be so disappointed in myself if I give up now. I have to keep trying. I have to. Stop crying. You can do this. I can.